Week 10 - Tuesday - Lonely

For all the single parents out there - I do not know how you do it on a regular basis! I take for granted when Barry is here (he is in Las Vegas for work) and how much he helps me. I'm not just talking about house-work either. He helps me so much coordinate with the kids and run them here and there. I've already had to leave work early twice this week and it is only Tuesday. It is rather stressful to deal with it all. Not only do I miss his help, I also miss his company. Barry is my best friend and even when he is gone a few days I miss him. I know it sounds corny, but I do. For those of you reading this that may not be married, remember to marry your best friend! I also have to admit I do not sleep well when he is gone. I think it is because he makes me feel safe and when he is not here I have to be the protector and I don't do it as well as he does. What a wimp I'm being tonight!

I was ready to kill the puppy today. She scratched my face pretty good under my eye. Emily was so sweet she told me I was bleeding and then asked if she could doctor me. Of course I said yes. I enjoy my daughters company. She is so sweet!

I'm exhausted today too. I do believe it is because I've not been eating enough food. I'm not getting enough protein, carbs or fat. I've neglected myself this week and I sure can tell the difference. My energy level is gone and I don't seem to be able to focus and I'm pretty grumpy too. I wanted so much to get my room cleaned, my bathroom cleaned, all the clothes washed and a start on doing a purge on Emily's room (she is growing up way to fast!). I've cleaned the kitchen and washed 1.5 loads of clothes.

I'm not sure I'll get much more done tomorrow. I pick the kids up from Kids Camp at the church then I've got to figure out dinner and time to workout too. The kids want to do the rock wall again so at least they won't mind going. Oh yes, did I mention Becky is in labor too! Or at least she thinks she is.

Yes, I'm overwhelmed today. I think I need to go talk to God and ask for some help. Usually that is what I am forgetting when I get so busy and frustrated. Why is it that we forget the one person who can make it all better or at least give us the strength to do what we need to do? GOD ~ HELP! Please settle my heart and mind and give me the strength I need to continue through my week. Help me make good eating choices and make it easy for me to exercise. AMEN

GOOD NIGHT Everyone!